The gratification of
erasing false starts
finds you just as unravelled as
any other pleasure
tingling fingers
itching, frozen, honey icicles
threatening to drip over
all of your opus, your corpus, like
naughty candle wax
with every heartbeat he didn't call
you grew a little older and one foot
inched carefully in front of the other
along the slick ice of despondency
what gets elided in the viscosity
is the rigmarole of feeling
dull feeling
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Saturday, November 15, 2014
No alarms and no surprises
Change is the nature of this fractal self, modulation
to the point that I no longer recognize the real,
no longer distinguish it from the accoutrements I've grown for
the benefit of those who don't give a shit
and when these appendages take on a life of their own
and cease to become vestigial, enigmatic, but essential
for those who love me for what was never organic but
only pruned, manicured, I am but a structure of feeling
a constructed other ready for consumption
Maybe this is the point of a low birth as an empty womb
Privilege, an unchanging self, you are unfathomable
And no less green plastic fibers on a fake tree than I
We are all covered in the maya of ishwara
to the point that I no longer recognize the real,
no longer distinguish it from the accoutrements I've grown for
the benefit of those who don't give a shit
and when these appendages take on a life of their own
and cease to become vestigial, enigmatic, but essential
for those who love me for what was never organic but
only pruned, manicured, I am but a structure of feeling
a constructed other ready for consumption
Maybe this is the point of a low birth as an empty womb
Privilege, an unchanging self, you are unfathomable
And no less green plastic fibers on a fake tree than I
We are all covered in the maya of ishwara
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
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